a recent alley find

“Have patience with everything that remains unsolved in your heart. Try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books written in a foreign language. Do not now look for the answers. They cannot now be given to you because you could not live them. It is a question of experiencing everything. At present you need to live the question. Perhaps you will gradually, without even noticing it, find yourself experiencing the answer, some distant day.

"Letters to a Young Poet”- Rainer Maria Rilke

the other whipple: 12

back to the original whipple home.

c'est la vie.

the other whipple: 11.

i did some massive house cleaning.

i hope i didnt miss any spots.

mej comes home very early tomorrow morning.

i hope its just like how she left it.

its been a wonderful 12 days.

i feel like i grew up so much just by being here.

its like i went to boot camp..or house therapy.

i should get into professional housesitting or something.

that would be so interesting.

the other whipple: 10.

i took most of my things back home today.

it was sad.

the other whipple: 09.

i washed tons of dishes and watered the plants.

i wonder if talking to them really help them grow.

either way..i hope they enjoyed me talking to them today.

becki and karina came by for coffee.

we sat and talked and talked..

about our lives in the past and present-

our phases as adolescents, our aging bodies,

our new interests..

and the fears of the future.

we always learn something new about each other when we talk.

i see them as more than just friends now.

theyre the sisters ive been needing in my life.

i played with cat a lot today and i think she enjoys it.

i hope she'll miss me when i'm gone.

i'm about to finish packaging my lip balms.

although i am dead tired today.

mejay comes back in 3 days!!!

life here went by so fast...

i'm starting to get sad.

the other whipple: 08.

i had a little gathering of friends.

there were new hellos and some goodbyes.
but pleasant conversations
and altogether a good time.

everyone said mejays home feels like...home.

that makes me happy.

mej,

this place is a mess..but a joyous mess.

i promise itll be in top shape when you get back.

i also owe you paper towels, shampoo, and matches.

the other whipple: 07.

today was such a long day

and its still going

i finally got to sleep in.

cat was seeking extra love today.

i painted and bought a tree for my house

then came here, exhausted.

i just ordered in some crispy chow fun from zen.

it was so delicious..

but now i feel sick.

i'm about to work on some photos..

and make some more lip balm!

my stuff is everywhere...

i need to clean.

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i accomplished everything i had planned to do today
and then some!
it feels damn good.

the other whipple: 06

i tried going to bed early last night

in hopes to wake up feeling good in the morning.
only to find myself in tears in the middle of the night.
there were just so many emotions going through me.

when i got "home", i spent about three hours
roaming around the house...
camera in hand.
trying to find the "piece" for today.
i feel like almost everything is photographic here
but i felt so stuck.
finally i found what i was looking for...
but it took me about three hours to perfect.

i'm gonna make myself some dinner now.

the other whipple: 05.

i got here and picked up cat today.

it was strange and unusual.

its the first time i held a cat in my arms since i was 5, i think.

the fear left me.

i find myself doing a lot of things here that are out of my element.

its a peculiar feeling..

but a feeling i've been searching for in a long time.

i spoke to mejay for a little bit.

and afterwards, she sent me a text.

it was a question that will ultimately change my life again.

and all these feelings of renewal, anxiety, excitement, and

hope

came over me.

i watched a streetcar named desire today.
man...that marlon brando.
such a fox.

the other whipple: 04.

the house speaks at night and sometimes it scares me.

i found her weapons next to the bed..and so i feel better.

i couldn't get out of  bed today and got to work 2 hours late.

its interesting how i can sleep so deeply once my mind lets me.

.. and to wake up in a bed thats not my own

and not want to get out of it.

i'm finding myself in a routine now when i'm here

but i have to keep my mind set that this is only temporary.

and i'm oddly getting along with cat.

i played with her today...i was still afraid.

it was a long day for me.

i took portraits of an old friend's family

and we went to dinner.

i was questioned many things..life- friends, work, love..and more about love.

i couldn't wait to come here and be by myself.

the other whipple: 03.

Cat kept crying last night.

i think she misses mejay.

other things were already keeping me up.

that was just an added nuisance.

i washed some dishes.

had coffee with karina.

took a pic for my photo of the day...

on the bed.

ironic the first shots of this project isnt in my own home.

but it def makes it more interesting.

i wish i lived here.

everything about this place makes me happy.

it gives me the solace i need right now.

esp after last night...

the other whipple: 02.

i watered some plants..

(soo many plants, i love them!)

but i hope they love me back.

otherwise, i didn't get much done today.

i woke up feeling new.

but im going to sleep feeling like the old me again.

the other whipple: 01.

at first i didnt know what to do with myself.

i couldnt find anything i needed.

nothing was familiar.

a cat roaming around.

different noises.

some scary.

some soothing.

a quietness that embraces me.

i'm taking mental inventories of where things are.

every nook. every crack.

i wonder of her daily routine.

where she brushes her teeth...

(there's no sink in there!)

how the water doesn't leak out of the standing shower!

and i think of how unfamiliar this space is.

but i look around and feel comfort.

and i have the urge to create.

that is what i'll do while i'm here.